Good morning loves! And happy Wednesday to you!
I’m so glad to get such positive reinforcement and encouragement from yesterdays post! You all are so sweet and kind! I’m extremely happy I put my thoughts and feelings out there and that a lot of people can relate. I know that this whole process is not easy, but I will never overcome it if I don’t challenge myself.
Enough of my cheesy thank you’s for y’all (I think I’m watching too much bachelorette), it’s time to have a party. A WIAW party, that is.
Breakfast was nothing new, I hope you are all not sick of seeing my breakfast, but you probably are…I don’t see myself getting tired of it anytime soon, especially with the sun heading this way for summer, so you’ll just have to get used to it
7:30 – Breakfast:
I was struggling a bit after this meal with wanting to get active and was feeling quite antsy, so I decided to take a few minutes aside and set a timer and just “meditate”, I’m going to put that in quotations, because I’m not sure if what I did qualified as meditation. I get quite distracted so even the 5 minutes was tough. I’m not quite sure if this helped too much, maybe a bit. I guess its something I need to get used to. I did feel more relaxed, I suppose.
I then realized I needed coffee, so I scrambled out the door and headed to Starbucks. Shocked? Well, you shouldn’t be. I came home got my drank on, stocked a few blogs, painted my nails, and realized it was time for lunch.
11:30 – Lunch:
I roasted a HUGE (seriously like almost the whole squash) amount of roasted Kabocha Squash with an egg white omelette on the side, again no picture because it was pretty messy and quite ugly. No need to embarrass myself by posting my sub-par omelette making abilities. And a side of coconut butter for dipping the squash in. Best combo ever.
I had some hodge podge, random, but essential errands to run so off I went. I came home and decided to get a good foam roll in since I never do it when I’m active, so why not do it when I’m doing nothing. Makes sense to me.
3 – Snack:
I had one of my pumpkin coconut bars, so good after its been refrigerated! And I served it with a little protein frosting.
I was tempted to skip dinner honestly, with feeling lame from not working out and having a bad body image day, but realized that would be letting the disorder win, so I sucked it up, realized I could have far worse problems, and that I still need to eat to function in everyday activities. Duh…this is the point to my challenge!
Dinner ended up being another favourite of mine. I had just gone out and got a huge spaghetti squash, so decided to cook that up and make a meal based from that.
5 – Dinner:
And now I’m relaxing with a cup of tea, getting ready to watch the return of Pretty Little Liars. I feel slightly embarrassed admitting I like this show, but I don’t care, It’s a goody.
I definitely didn’t eat enough through out the day, so will have to beef up my evening snack a bit, I guess today was just a day where I struggled mentally with what I was consuming. It’s normal for me to have days like this, but expressing myself makes me feel a bit more accountable for these struggles and realize there is something emotionally going on that is making me want to restrict. I definitely feel a lot more relief that I gave myself this restriction to not exercising, which is kind of weird for me.
I strive for perfection, but it is just not attainable. There is no such thing as the perfect anything, so I need to stop with this black and white thinking and move past this way my mind and thoughts have learned to function.
It’s great to feel myself getting more honest with my family, friends, and myself about how things are going in recovery. This was a huge realization for me that the most important part of recovery in honesty with myself. No more denial or excuses about how things are going.
Anyways, that is all for today!
What’s the best thing you ate today? I ask this everytime, but it makes sense to ask this on WIAW day I believe.