Hey there friends!
I’ve unfortunately caught a bit of an infection, so have started up a round of antibiotics. I’m not feeling the best right now, I thought it would be appropriate to post that video blog I mentioned about last week.
I know I haven’t updated you all on my recovery situation in a while. It’s time to post about the realness going on right now and share a bit about my past as well.
I’ve overcome a lot of different things in the past. It has probably be the hardest battle to get myself to where I am today. I’m a huge people pleaser, a type A person, so admitting these things is hard.
It was also a struggle for me to give up bad habits because of this quality.
*(If you want to skip all the hormone talk, go to the 2:55 mark).
{ Gosh, I blab too much, and excuse the random change from couch to floor, I had a phone call and decided to randomly change positions after;) }
Since I’ve committed myself to a healthier lifestyle. (This includes different things; gaining back mental, physical and emotional health.) It will always be a work in progress, but right now I’m truly happy.
Anyways, I just wanted to give you all an updated version on how things are looking for me right now, a little view into my past and how
I’ve taken lots of suggestions from my therapist, nutritionist, as well as wonderful friends and implemented meditation into my lifestyle. It has completely changed my outlook on life and how I internalize emotions and things in my daily life.
I’ll shut up now, since I seem to have a problem with too much talking;)
Have you ever had to overcome hard obstacles? How did you do it?
Do you like watching vlogs, or prefer written up posts? Its probably easier for people to read, but just wondering what you all prefer.
On a less serious note, tell me your favorite thing about the holiday season!
Hope you all have a fabulous Tuesday!
About Lisa
Hey Beauty! Is it just me or is there no vlog? I can’t find it…?
I can’t see the vlog either love!
I think it’s working now! Sorry!
Oopsy! That was silly haha. I think it should work now!
It’s working now!
Seriously, I love you and your honesty!! You are amazing and I know you will be helping some people out there who really needed to hear this. <3
Thanks Brittany! You’re amazing:)
It works!! And I think this is such a beautiful vlog. I had no idea that you were suffering from panic attacks. I had that when I was deep in my ED when I had a binge and also only a year ago when I was in a very bad workplace, I could hardly leave the house. It is so great to hear that you are in a better place today and loving yourself! I am totally with you on the meditation thing. It helped me so much too!
Thank you Lucie! Oh wow, I didn’t know that about yourself either. Yes, it was a REALLY tough cycle to escape. I was just in such a bad place, but things are getting so much better and I’m so thankful for that!
Brilliant post Lisa! We must chat further about this. I’m working on the whole self love thing now and actually feeling my feelings! It’s quite the challenge but I know we are both capable of doing it. I’m currently loving Gabrielle Bernstein and have been working my way through spirit junkie and add more ing to your life and I’m in love with both. Thank you so much for sharing your honesty. I know it took a lot of courage and your beauty and love just shines from the inside out
Yes let’s definitely chat about it! My e-mail is lisa.lately@hotmail.com It’s definitely a tough struggle, but holy moly it feels SO much better being out of it! (for the most part), I still get some random panic attacks every now and again. I’m so happy you are loving Spirit Junkie and adopting some of the practices. You are too kind!
Love the vlog! When I was deep in the ED I had issues around anxiety and OCD as well. And you bring up some great points about not menstruating – even if you don’t want to have kids, it’s still a problem for your health.
And self-love is absolutely vital – I’m glad you’re finding it!
Thank you for the support Sam! You are awesome!xo
You are so beautiful, so strong and so brave!! I’ve never dealt with an eating disorder but I could relate so much to your vlog! I love that you are promoting meditation, reading motivational books, and the importance of positive energy. These are things that I think are so important for all people!
Thank you for the encouragement Brittany! Your comment means a lot to me!
<3 <3 Lisa, you're so incredibly beautiful and strong – thank you for opening up about all of the things that you've overcome. I had no idea that you've been through so much, and while I thought you were pretty darn amazing before, now you just rock my socks off. I've been dealing with a lot of anxiety related disorders for pretty much my whole life, so I can definitely understand how debilitating they are and how difficult it is to overcome them. It's so awesome to hear that you've been doing better though
Aaaaaand I think we really need to get in touch… expect me to e-mail stalk you soon 
Ah thank you Amanda! You are incredible yourself! I think anxiety is so overlooked, it really can be debilitating, as it was for me. It actually helps a lot to open up! Please do e-mail me!
I’d be so down for e-mail stalking hah;)
Good for you for being open with your family. It always helps and they are the people that understand us and will support us.
BABE! I’m so proud of you for opening up about everything. This will be such a healing process for you and for others. The first three minutes were especially moving.
Practicing recoverY and leaving our ED habits behind (i.e. exercising because we think we have to and eating food that we believe we should eat) is so key. Also, challenging ourselves – doing things that might seem uncomfortable, like doing more yoga and less cardio and HIIT in the interest of getting our period back sooner. I know that leaving HIIT behind was hard at first but, now, I know that it is so much better for my body as I am trying to get my period back. Have you considered doing that or talked to your nutritionist about that?
This was just the motivation I needed to *actually* talk to the exercising component to my nutritionist/doctor. I’ve casually mentioned it, but kind of avoided the topic because it makes me uncomfortable to think about. But, you’re so right. It seems uncomfortable (because it is), but in the long run it will get me healthier! Thank you for that!xox
I’m so glad that you took this is a loving, positive way! I was admittedly a bit nervous being so RAW in my comment but I just want what’s best for you and you know that! You know that I completely understand what you’re going through. As you know, I looooved HIIT so much too! But I weaned myself off of it (started at twice per week then once per week and now I’m doing none!) and am just doing yoga and toning with light weights or my bodyweight. I feel incredible, Lisa, and best of all, I got some spotting yesterday and I haven’t taken progesterone this month!!! I promise you it is so worth it.
This was very well-spoken. Thanks so much for having the courage to be so open and honest about this. I truly believe that it will be beneficial to many!
Thanks Hannah!
You rock and you will get through it all! Keep being strong and keep doing what you are!
You know I had a challenge to get over, my HA, it was a rough road! I am so grateful, blessed, and happy to have gotten through it <3
Love ya girl!
You are a beautiful speaker! Love your honesty and ability to open up. It’s admirable.
Wow, this really hit home for me. First of all, I don’t know if I would be getting my period if I were not on birth control and that thought really scares me. It is hard to face the consequences of what you could be doing to yourself, but I don’t want to find out one day that I have osteoporosis and it’s too late to do anything.
I was also one of those people who was ALWAYS talking about something body, weight, food or “health” related and I think a lot of people were probably turned off by that. I think that could be a reason why I have had so much trouble in my relationships and only seem to be able to date people for a few months before they take off.
I am starting to focus on self-love more now, as well as loving others. I realized at a certain point that being skinny was not going to make me a more likable person unless I truly worked on my personality and being more open and loving. When I think of all the people I love most in my life, none of those feelings have anything to do with how physically fit those people are. I was living a shallow existence and I am ready to be a better person.
Thank you so much for opening up like this, you’re an inspiration xoxo
I just love these. What a beautiful baby! All his pruicoes little facial expressions are perfect and you even got his little back wrinkles! Love it!
Ugh, JUST when I thought it wasn’t possible for me to like love you anymore!
In opening up (in this totally NOT rambly , beautifully spoken vlog), you’ve provided so much hope & inspiration for me personally, I look up to you now, as many others will/should also. Your words are smart & full of wisdom.
The part that reeeally jumped at me, was when you speak about how you used to be ‘bad’ at texting & emailing people – almost pushing others away – and the panic & anxiety surrounding this. I struggle with this problem in a MAJOR way:(. But I’ve been feeling completely alone with it, and like no-one else has this issue. So it is comforting to know that at least SOMEBODY out there can relate, & has made strides away from it.
My favourite part= when you say, ‘I am truly happy’. Good! Because you deserve it, and giiirl you worked for it.
I really enjoy the occasional vlog, over a written post. It’s just fun for me to hear the voice, & see the face of the person behind the blogs I love so much:).
Xxx
Beautiful Vlog sweetie, you vulnerability and your story is so amazing! You have helped me more than you will ever know and I KNOW your story is going to be used to help and support MANY others in the future. You are beautiful, inside and out, and you have overcome so much already! I am so happy to hear you are feeling better and taking actions to love yourself, you deserve it!
Love the vlog and I love your honesty! I am so proud of how far you have come and I know that you will continue to make the best choices for your body! We need to chat soon!!!
When I reached a healthy weight (after I gave up exercise for a while to actually get the weight up), I got my period back. It’s up to you to do that too. But I can tell you’re not ready to let go of your daily exercise routines… :\
I like the idea of vlogs, but can’t watch them on my work computer due to the firewalls… so I basically don’t watch them.
Hope you feel better soon!
Thank you so much for posting this. I was lying awake feeling sorry for myself when I decided to pull up my blog reader. So many of the things you said really resonated with me, and your vlog was just the thing to give me some much needed perspective. Hopefully that new-found perspective will lead to some much-needed sleep!
Hugs, Lisa!! Girl, I love you SO much. You’re a true light, and an inspiring testament to the fact that hardships really can be overcome. It’s quite a journey, isn’t it? Thank you for being so honest here, and for raising awareness about issues that are more common than we often realize. I’ve struggled with HA too, and know how challenging it is to change habits that are regularly deemed “healthy” by society (i.e. intense exercise, restricted eating). Our bodies know us better than we know ourselves, and re-learning to trust and listen to the cues they send is the REAL definition of and healthy heart and mind. I’m so proud of you!! xoxoxo <3
All I can say is wow. I have gained the utmost respect for you. I hope that you continue to discuss these things on your blog and be the powerful influence that you are.
Wow. I’m really touched by your honesty. There’s so much stuff that I just can’t ever see myself blogging about. But I can definitely relate to a lot of what you’re talking about. I used to struggle a lot more with anxiety when I was younger and lately I’ve noticed myself backsliding into that. I’m interested in what you said about how meditation has worked for you. Do you have any resources/books to recommend?
I’m so glad that you posted this vlog. I’m struggling/have struggled with similar things and it’s so nice to hear how much you’ve improved.
I currently don’t get my period. It’s been an on and off thing for the past couple of years. It’s due to a number of health reasons, but I never knew the part about bone health. That seriously frightens me.
And the part about anxiety over texting and making phone calls… And leaving the house… I can’t even begin to imagine the extent that you suffered from. But I do struggle with those things on a much more minor level. I fret about texting people. I reword my texts over and over again, and sometimes never even click send because I’m so worried about how others will see them. Will they be annoyed, confused, bothered?
So much to think about. Great post. I don’t like most vlogs, but you do yours so well! I still prefer to read posts, but I’d be willing to watch them.
I was diagnosed with panic disorder 2 years ago so I know how that feels. It was the worst point of my life, I was also in the midst of eating disorder, bordering depression and severe anxiety. I think no one could possibly understand what it really feels like or what it means until they have experienced it themselves. It’s so horrible, it made me think about taking my own life just because I didn’t feel like anything was even real. I couldn’t feel anything except contempt toward myself. That or I was numb. Or panicking and thinking I was going to die. It’s a rollercoaster of emotions. I wrote one post about panic disorder but it’s so hard to talk about, I tend to not even be able to think back to those times because just thinking about it gives me anxiety. I don’t wanna feel that way, hah.
Life is a neverending journey of being better. And you are already so much more just by sayuing what you are saying is a huge improvement as well. And I think it’s very important that you talked about menstruating, mine was gone for a few months and on and off and I’d think of it as just ehh my period isn’t here , whatever. Or just thinking that I wouldn’t know if I got pregnant but I didn’t know it’s important for bone health. So yeah. That’s good to know for sure.
My thoughts are with you always and I am cheering you on
You are not alone! xo
i actually suffered from panic attacks back in college, i was put on medication. It wasn’t from an ED but it was from other stresses and the need to be a people pleaser. I think the medication just made me more dependent on needing that fix, ya know? but you are doing it right. when we can’t help ourselves, we need to reach out and let others helps us, mentally, spiritually, and physically. I totally believe in you and your God given strength. Thank you for your honesty friend.
p.s.
walking and yoga can really help with balancing out the hormones. it seems impossible to just do that, but l’ll be the first to admit that my body responded with healing when i did just that. And mentally too!