clean eating

Good morning everyone!

Have you ever had that internal debate over quality versus quantity in terms of our health?

In society, it seems that many of us hold onto the belief that the only way to be successful in weight loss or dieting is that calculations (calories in vs. calories out, burning x amount of calories per day) will lead us to get results and quality of food gets put on the back burner.

In my opinion, the quality of food we consume should be more important than the quantity.

almond butter sandwich

{ almond butter & ezekiel bread; paleo may be all the rage now, but I still love my carbs }

When I first started losing weight, I was a slave to the 100 calorie packages.

Maybe I could eat more of these, but I’d never feel satisfied. Not surprising, as these items are filled with chemicals and preservatives.

It’s easy to stick to those really low calorie foods, but in the end you’re so devoid of any nutrition that you end up hungrier than before.

Why have one egg when you could have 5 egg whites for the same amount of calories? Discounting the fact that whole eggs contain the most nutrition and benefits when we are eating these foods WHOLE.

strawberries + coconut milk
 { one of my favorite snacks these days; coconut milk and strawberries }

This also leads to the “eat clean” movement.

Yes, I consider eggs clean, full fat yogurt is more clean compared to the 0% processed variety.

However, everyone has there own definition of ‘”clean eats”.

Eating clean is seen as a good thing, but when clean eats become too restrictive is that really considered a good thing?  If we view eating clean as fuel, quality, nutrients, and ingredients instead of focusing on calories, I think that’s better for overall health.

PBball

 { even though peanut flour isn’t a whole food, I still and will continue to enjoy it! }

It’s also necessary we don’t become too obsessed with eating clean. If we are only eating these healthy foods with no leeway, food consuming all our thoughts, planning and scheduling meals; well that just gets in the way of living life and eventually becomes emotionally and mentally draining.

Being restrictive, obsessive, and isolating isn’t healthy. Eating clean can be part of our daily lives, but we can’t live to eat clean.

Eating foods we like shouldn’t leave us feeling guilty, we have to be able to indulge some of the time.

Obviously, I’m not perfect in this way of viewing food. I still hold onto beliefs that I must “eat clean”, now I’m trying to “unlearn” my clean eating obsession.

wine
{ so wine may not be the epitome of health, but that won’t stop me from enjoying it every once and a while }

There are still foods I won’t eat, as I view them as unclean, and still label food as “good and bad”.

It’s a struggle to change these thoughts, even if they are disordered.

I’m slowly coming to terms with what works for me, instead of looking to others for the next new thing. I know I’ll get there eventually.

How do you define clean eating?

What’s your favorite food to indulge in?

Have you ever been too obsessed when it comes to food?

Hope everyone has a fantastic day!

Friday Five

Hello friends! :)

Oh, how I love Fridays. After a long week, the weekend has finally presented itself.

I started the day off with breakfast, coffee, and a workout. Three of my favourite things.

Has anyone noticed the super sized status of strawberries this year. It’s insane. I wonder what kind of things they add to get them to grow so big? Ah, better of not to know I think. Ignorance is bliss.

A couple other things to mention…cookie dough and pudding.

Yesterday was one of those days I decided to get a little crafty in the kitchen.
I love experimenting with recipes and ingredients. I have a couple special things coming up soon! You’ll just have to wait a little while longer ;)

I whipped up another batch of my cookie dough balls. Superb.

Moving on to the pudding, its pretty much a cinch to make. And the ingredients together make this pudding super creamy.

Chocolate Peanut Butter Faux Cheesecake

  • 1/2 cup cottage cheese
  • 1/4 cup plain greek yogurt
  • 2 tablespoons peanut flour
  •  1/2 tablespoon cacao powder
  • 10-ish drops liquid stevia
  • 1/2 banana
  • 2-4 tablespoons almond milk (to blend)

Throw all ingredients into a blender or use a hand blender, and blend away. This is the perfect snack post workout or before bed.

Mmm. I love me some pudding.

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Five Things Friday

1. I’ve been adoring Kristin’s pumpkin protein dough. Amazing. Do yourself a favour and make it.

2. Go check out Meg’s High Five Friday post she hosts every week.
I would like to give myself a high five for keeping up with my plan to increase my calories, trying to maintain a positive attitude, and challenge myself to try new things.

3. Wonka created a bunch of the craziest, coolest sounding ice cream flavours. I kind of want to try them just because of their name’s and design. I mean are you even kidding me? Kerfluffle Truffle, Chipperberry Swirl, Caramel Nut Kadoozle, and more.  These sound awesome.

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4. Go and do this 1000 rep workout. I was a sweaty mess by the end of this. I know there is a lot of controversy with the new bodyrock.tv website, but there is no denying that they can still give me a kick ass workout. I do prefer Zuzana’s workouts, but these still rock.

5. I just love the Ellen Show. And Tony. Watch this pleaseeee.

That is all.

What is one interesting thing you have come across this week?
Enjoy your weekend!!

Cheesy Balls

Holy. Moly.

Dare I say I made the best cheesy balls yesterday.

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 I never thought I would ever use those words in a sentence. There’s a first for everything.

I have a little confession to make to you all…

Did you love that Kraft Dinner when you were a younger kid? Welp, I didn’t.

There was something about the weird looking noodles and creamy bright orange cheese that threw me off.

Yes, I was one of those odd ball kids, who hated mac and cheese, pizza, handburgers (wait, is it a hamburger or handburger?), and all those other foods kids usually enjoy. I lived off carbs. White pasta, white bread, sugary cereals, and french fries. Oh, and frozen peas. Seriously, I do not know how I was not a whale.

Homemade macaroni and cheese on the other hand.
I. could. not. get. enough.
Honestly, almost every single day I came home from school I would beg my mom to make her homemade mac and cheese. It was delicious, it was (mostly) all I would eat for dinner. Until, I realized it wasn’t doing very nice things to my waist line.

When I went on my journey to lose weight, eating mac and cheese? Forget about it. That was totally off limits to me.
That is, until I started experimenting with healthier ingredients to make a great tasting alternative to mac and cheese.

Healthy Cheese Sauce Balls (what a weird recipe name)
Recipe (makes 4 balls) inspired by this recipe

  • 6 tablespoons nutritional yeast
  • 80 grams goat cheese (if vegan, use tofu)
  • 2 tablespoons cashew butter
  • 1 tablespoon lemon juice
  • 1/2 tablespoon dijon mustard (I can’t use this because I’m allergic to mustard, but I know lots of people use it to get a tangier tasting sauce)
  • 1/4-1/2 teaspoon each garlic powder, onion powder (if desired) (again, not for me, I have a sensitivity to these)*
1. Place goat cheese and cashew butter in a microwave safe bowl and heat for about 30 seconds.
2. Add the lemon juice, mustard, and spices (if using), and nutritional yeast.
3. Grab a fork, and stir until the ingredients are well combined.
4. Separate into 4 equal portions (makes about 2 tablespoons per serving)
5. Enjoy.
I topped this with roasted cauliflower, spinach(!!!), and zucchini.
By the way, roasted spinach is delicious.
Once you place them over your hot food it will melt over like a cheese sauce. And just stir in to combine. For some reason I think of this song whenever someone says cheese, because one time on the radio I heard someone thinking the song was called “like a cheese stick”. Not quite, buddy.
These little cheese balls are not only totally cheesy and fun to say, but they are delicious too. It was like a little slice (or ball) of my childhood.
The combo of cashew butter and nutritional yeast is like heaven on earth, and with the creamy goat cheese it amps it up even more. If you don’t have cashew butter, feel free to use tahini.
*I avoid these because of the FODMAPS. Thanks to Elise posting about FODMAPS, I tried removing most of these from my diet and have noticed a significant improvement in my IBS. I find that garlic and onion irritate me the most, so I never use them. I will however, eat other FODMAP containing foods in limited moderation.
Benefits:
Nutritional Yeast-
  • Good source of dietary fiber, vitamin B6 and B12, and selenium.
Goat Cheese-
  • More digestible than cow’s milk, high in calcium, vitamin K, D, A, B6, and B12. And contains CLA’s (to help burn belly fat)
Cashews-

  •  Contains no sugar or cholesterol and is high in magnesium (can help those bones), thiamin, and riboflavin.
Did you like kraft dinner as a child?
Do you have any food allergies?

I hope you are having a great Thursday, and a lovely night!

WIAW #5

Good morning everyone!
It’s that time of week again – what I ate Wednesday
Another day of delicious eats were celebrated over here.

I did a fairly good job at getting those veggies in, but since I am trying to eat more calories, I didn’t want to stuff myself silly with the green stuff. You know how too many vegetables sits in the stomach, sometimes not the best. Especially in my situation.

My alarm went off at 5 AM, and boy was I tired. I woke up from such a deep sleep, I contemplated not going to spin class this morning in effort to get a bit more sleep. I eventually decided I might as well get up because it did not look like I’d be getting back to bed after the mental dialogue going on.

Spin ended up being great, so I am glad I went.

8 – Breakfast
I had overnight egg white oat bran, with extra chia seeds, 1/4 cup pumpkin, 1/2 a frozen banana, and I topped it with some cocoa almond butter.

I followed it up with a cup of Starbucks, great way to start the day off right!

Since I worked out this morning, I have to make sure to add extra calories into my day. This is something I was avoiding before, part of me just wanted to stick to how I usually eat, but I know that I need to make some improvements in my nutrition if I want to function normally. The mental dialogue I play over in my mind drives me a little nutty. This eating disorder plays such wild games with my head.

After breakfast, I finished getting ready and headed out to grab some groceries I’d be needing for the rest of the week, and to run a few errands. It was such a beautiful day, I was so excited. I can not wait for summer and the nicer days to come!

By the time I got home I was hungry for lunch.

11:30 – Lunch
I made myself a flax-egg pizza crust (made with ground flaxseed, almond flour, an egg, egg whites, and nutritional yeast), and topped with tomato paste, goat cheese, spinach, and red peppers. And I had an apple on the side.

3 – Snack
greek yogurt mixed with 1 scoop sun warrior vanilla protein powder, and a tablespoon of cashew butter that I mixed in, delicious (I half ate this before picturing, oops)

5 – Dinner
Even though it was really nice and hot outside, that was not enough of an excuse to fire up the oven. I roasted broccoli, asparagus, and cauliflower in 1/2 tablespoon coconut oil, dill, and nutritional yeast. And topped that with more goat cheese (obsessed) and a turkey burger. With a side of tomato paste ketchup (just stevia mixed into tomato paste).

This dinner was a little more “challenging” because I had goat cheese twice in one day, and to my eating disorder, having cheese twice in a day is “bad”. Which is stupid, because it is certainly not bad in the slightest.

While I’m preparing meals, I sometimes can not comprehend my own rational voice between my eating disorder voice. If that statement is even true.

I am not sure which one is actually “me”. If that makes sense to anyone. When I talk to my therapist, I will tell him how I avoid certain foods and follow food/exercise rules because I am afraid I will get fat, and he tells me that is not really me, but the eating disorder telling me this will happen.

I get confused, because how do I decipher the two of them? The eating disorder seems like such a part of me that is not separate, that I can’t tell whether it is really an “eating disorder voice”, or if I have trained my mind to actually think this way.

Do you believe an illness like this can control us in such a huge way that it actually is a separate part of you. Am I really a separate person from this disorder?

8 – Evening Snack
a protein muffin with coconut flour cream and peanut flour paste.

Now I’m off to catch up on some Real Housewives and get to bed! :)

Recovery takes a lot of determination, hard work, and willingness; it will also have set-backs and I need to learn a set back is not a relapse. I am not a failure because I had a set-back, and I don’t have to go down that dark path any more. Everybody deserves full recovery, including me.

I hope your day was lovely and positive!

What was the best thing you ate today?