So, where to start? I feel like I have so much to say, but I’ll try not to bore you all to tears and sum it in the best way I can. The blog will be getting a much needed update. Changes in life and on this blog will include…
1. Less focus on “healthy living” posts. I am no longer as “passionate” as I once was about food and healthy living. I am putting passionate in quotations because for me, I believe I was confusing obsession with passion. It took a lot of work for me to really see that my passion is not in the health or fitness industry.
I will always have an interest in it, but because of my past, I think I had been confusing the two. I became way too focused with health. Thinking, looking, making, talking, and writing about food and my health. There’s a lot of hours in the day and I don’t want mine filled up with food or the healthiest next best thing for me to eat.
This being said, I will occasionally share a recipe that I made that I enjoyed, but will not longer be placing my blog in the “healthy living” category.
Over the past few months, I’ve discovered I prefer going out with friends, instead of taking an extra hour at home to make my Lunch. And that if the best part of my day is eating Breakfast, it’s not going to be the fulfilling life that I want to be living. I started obsessing over blogging, writing, and stopped living my life. There’s nothing wrong if you’re truly passionate about it, and love to do it…but for me, that focus has changed.
2. No longer sharing daily eats/What I Ate Wednesday posts. I never realized how bad my eating habits were until I looked back on them. I seriously cringed at how I came across and just how disordered I was, although I didn’t see it. For myself, taking photos of my meals is just too obsessive.
These used to be my favorite posts to read, but I noticed myself comparing and getting triggered. I know the intention of these is to not compare, but honestly, it’s not that realistic. Especially for me.
I also felt I wasn’t sharing a true view of what healthy living “should” be. Looking back, I wasn’t eating enough, and still do struggle with keeping my calories up and I don’t want to be giving young and impressionable minds the wrong idea about what healthy eating is. Not that everyone is doing this, but for me, my mindset was not in the healthiest place and I’m sure my diet was honestly not the best example of healthy living.
I’m no professional in then nutrition field, I’m just recovering from an eating disorder, so I’m probably not the best to be dishing out nutrition advice anyways. I guess I could’ve simplified this by stating I’m just no longer comfortable sharing my eating habits or daily eats.
**To clarify, I am not at all bashing others for sharing their passion in food or recipes, or healthy living. I mean, I still read a ton of healthy living blogs and love them. This is just no longer where my passion resides. And for the fact that I still do struggle with some leftover eating disorder habits that I no longer feel comfortable sharing. And I apologize in any way if you were put off by some of my posts in the past, or even tried to comment/e-mail me in attempts to help me. (I was clearly in a state of denial when I first read those messages, instead of seeing them as advice).
3. You may be wondering what I will be writing about (or maybe not)
So, the big change in my life is that I’ve decided to move and attend a professional Makeup Artistry School to become a professional Makeup Artist (if that wasn’t at all obvious). I’m just a little excited considering it’s the top rated school in Canada.
I know from speaking to others that becoming very successful in this industry is going to require a lot of insane hours, and a ton of hard work, but I’m so prepared to be involved in all the craziness in this industry because this is truly what I want to do.
It’s funny, growing up my friends always said they could see me as a Makeup Artist, but I dismissed that because I wanted something where I could earn lots of money. Like that time I wanted to be a lawyer…fail. I tried criminology, psychology, nutrition, and fitness and with all those endeavours, I never felt like any of them were the “right fit” for me.
Instead, I decided to not put my focus on the money and instead follow my passion, which is in the beauty industry after all. I still love blogging and writing, and knew there was a way to combine my passion for writing with my new career in the beauty industry. I think this blog will be a perfect fit for helping me in the career I will be working in.
I’ll be attending school this year and my blog will become more of a beauty/makeup blog, with lifestyle type posts sprinkled in. I’ll be sharing tips, tricks, dupes, tutorials, reviews, and of course any requests you may have, I have lots of ideas already! I completely understand if you no longer want to read because of this change, but I hope some of you still will.
I can’t wait to share real professional tips and tricks and not just posting things as a self taught artist. Not that there’s anything wrong with being self-taught, but you get a lot more experience and more educated in the field which I’m pretty pumped about. I am so thrilled to be spending more time perfecting my skills and helping others find their desired looks.
This has been a long work in progress. I’ve talked with makeup artists, different schools, companies, basically anyone in the industry, and know in my heart I am finally doing what’s right for me. I want to work in a job I love, not one I dread going to each day. And I’m so excited to share this new journey with you.
Until things are more settled in my life, I won’t have too much time to post here, but I promise I won’t stay away too long. And will update you more often. You have no idea how excited I am for my future, and I can honestly say this is the first time I’ve felt this way in such a long time. It feels amazing to be passionate about something once again, just when I was starting to think I may never find my “calling”, I feel like I have. That seems rather dramatic, but it’s true.
I’ve missed you all so much and am so glad to be back!
So tell me, what have you been up to lately?!
How was your weekend? I was pretty bummed we got our first day of snow which lasted a measly 2 hours. No polar vortex over here. That was a sad day. I just want one snow day this Winter. Okay, I really need to end this post now.